Follow your dreams

What did I even do last night…. so confused. But I don’t regret it; its just being foolish and learning a lesson!

I hate the fact How I try harder than You, give it my all, I don’t cheat, and you give excuses. But yet you get more rewards….

sometimes it’s nice to realize who your friends are.. not worried about you anymore, because that’s all you were concerned about.. relief.

nothing ever changes. i give up. i’m done. why does this always happen? why do i have to be open-minded about everything? like one person will change just cause it ayron, me. but it wont nothing ever changes. things get worse or things get better. iwe always allow one thing to ruin our day, because we count on the one thing to make our day better. the one phone call or just simply seeing someone. but god has a plan and i plan to follow it. for good or for worse i know my life is better than most. i have a lot going for me. i will figure things out, i still have many more years to come in my life. So don’t get down, just make the good things out weigh the bad (:

please please oh please<3

let me have the strength and not like anything go wrong… i would rather be able to ask him and him say no than for something to get in the way. please oh please(:

you know the one thing that sucks the most about being single? yes you cna flirt with all these guys go to a guy on the corner and kiss him for the hell of it. Get drunk and hook up with anyonr oyu want and ALL those “fun” things, but what even sucks more is that when your sinlge and you don’t do any of those things besdies flirt. The one thing that gets me and whjat makes me want a boyfriend is sports. looking around and seeing all the girls or guys their for their bf or gf. I wan that i want to support my boyfriend. I want to wake up every mornign to a text that says “good morning beautiful” i want to know i have someone thinking about me or wanting to hang out with me.

i’m seriously sitting at my sesk right right wishing i had this but knowing nothing good will come from wishing.

why is it so hard to be happ, yet  so easy to cry?

What am i doing wrong? :”””(

Put it all in writing, lend me a hand. Tell me something i need to know for once.  I cried for an hour yesterday i couldn’t stop. I’m sooo sorry to my family and friends to whom everyone i worried. I’m. fine. 

:(… i’m not happy right now. i have had a great day until now, why do i always get this feeling of guilt? and shame or worry? i’m sick of crying………. can something good happen please?

I dont know why im blogging, i guess its just cause im bored. YOu know that feeling of when you just want something exciting to happen? well i want that. The other day i looked around at who i was with and i realized im a third wheel… i will be for a long time. I personally think thats the worst feeling ever. Or when oyu turn to talk to someone and they are kissing their boyfriend.It’s sooo cute and i always get happy when i see others happy or when i see someone in a relationship. I lovee helping people be happy. But why is it that i can never help myself? one thing that stuck with me though, is my volleyball coach was talking to me and friend yesterday and she said “It took me until i was 27 to find the guy i wanna be with forever.” Maybe thats what is gonna take. Time.

I’m ready for summer, por favor.